i believe on bo ying.. He will difinite get the same hurt as me!
i will stand up and wont contact him anymore.
I had enough with the bustard.
Stand up to look forward and get my future back.
And promise to treasure him with all my life.

Today

09Oct,

After work went for a walk, reflash alot of things.

走这走这就走到了你家楼下。一路走这然我想起了好多美好回忆。
A surprise from me to look for you and you are at mama shop calling liling.
We went changi accompany jackson fishing and while the next morning we on the way back we saw a cat.
We say to meet up at lao di fang but i give you a shock by hidding beHind the wall.
The firstt time you carry me and turn around. It oso the day we get count by them.

Everything i was just like not long ago, time really past very fast while we are together.

While on the way back i think alot of things oso. 当出when we are together i do think and tell you we cant be together i dun want you to regret to be with me and hao hao dui her than you tell me i will never know. All the while i did not hide myself as wat im not happy i will tell you straight cos i dun want you to see my jia wen rou or good and end up see my bad part than you regret.
Together everyday i was thinking, afraid you will regret but now i see regret de ren shi wo. if 当出我会 selfish 一点就不会这样了。可是如果时间可以到留, 我想我还是会do the same.

也许爱就是要让他信副吧。Hope you really play de kai xin as wat im thinking now. Night, sweet dream.

GET LOSE BUSTARD

Remember wat you had done.
My heart wont be built up again by you again!
The hurt and pain is = to HATE!
How much i LOVE you is just like how much how much i HATE you.
The promise and the false STORY it all bull shit!!

Will totally change myself for today onwards.
Wont look back to my past stupid baby angel.
I finally understand what mum trying to tell me!

Broken Heart

1 July, is his birthday but we did not meet to celebrate together and even contact because he is celebrating with his girlfriend. We have been quarrel about this, I given him two option to choose, either with me on that day or break. Seen he had choose the way to be with her I think it clear enough what I am to him! Yesterday I pass him his things at his house void deck. He try to hold me but i tell him I wanna go home, I dun want to see him after 12am because I know we will quarrel . He accompanies me beside but we did not talk. While walking my mind start to think when he meets her, their happiness. My heart feels like dropping out. I keep thinking before 12am I have to reach home, is just like tong hua story de Cinderella because I dun want any quarrel in his birthday.

Jackson sms let me realize that it 12am le. My heart was like stop beating it feels so awful and Xin Ku, my tears keep dropping out. I knee down on my bed to pray hope he enjoy his day, business success, be happy and hao hao with his girlfriend.

L.O.V.E, is s very simple word to spell but it seems like very hard for me to write. Memory is happy de but to me is tong ku de.

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to youuu..
Happy Birthday to you.

Washing my face with tears in a quiet night yesterday.
Recall how we start, how our story begins.
It was a very sweet memorable moment that I won’t forget.
Listening to our song *first love story* my tears start
to drop even when im typing this.
I miss our secret place, miss your shadow and your love.

I can’t feel Love anymore. You dun even
border my email, border my feeling.
Yes, you should not have any feeling because
all the while you are just playing.

Wanna be alone.

We ever think of how we are going to celebrate our half years.
We ever think of staying together and ever marriage.
But now it just everything gone. You change,
you are different from the day we start.
I cant see and even feel our secret words *LOVE.

Many time wo hao xiang post our photo here
and even facebook but I know I cant.
Many time wo hao xiang tell everybody, I have a
boyfriend which is you.But I know I cant.
Many time wo hao xiang hao xiang hold on your head
No matter where we go but I know it won’t happen in Sin.

I give up my hao xiang hao xiang. Give up~~

Feeling empty in life.

Going to the clinic alone, doing everything by myself.
No Mu Biao, no happiness, no nothing. It just like im alone without anyone i love.
Maybe he is not my Mr Right, maybe he is just playing, i know i should end fast before i regret.

'Trust' is hard to built, my trust on him start to shake. I hate liars!
Want to cry,feel like crying but i know is not worth for me to cry.
I have to smile and walk towards the end.

If i can plan my life, i dun wish to have a boyfriend. I hope i can end together with my mum to the other world. I wish that my mum can 'long life hundred years'. I just wanna say only my mum will love me forever.